I feel that I'm quite a scary person. Sometimes when I do some reflection on myself, think of things that happened recently especially when I'm on my way to work alone (because I walk 25 minutes to the mrt station everyday, so leaves me with plenty of time to ponder about stuffs), there are times I surprise myself so much how different my true self can be from the self I have been showing people.
Let's see. I can be good tempered, really. I try not to lose temper whenever I can, but mostly because there's not much things I will really blow my top in the first place. But when you just step on my tail, that's it. I'm really lousy at controlling temper. So it's kinda like, I'm not exactly what you call a good-tempered person, because I cannot control my anger once you trigger it and I think I can be really scary after that. Maybe the reason why people think that I'm kinda good-tempered is because there are actually very few things that can make me really angry, so you don't see my losing temper often (which is a good thing for you and I LOL).
I experienced that kind of feeling just yesterday night when I walked home with my brother. I was arguing with him about some touchy subject (which I would rather not describe here, not because it's too private but because it goes a long way). I realised that I REALLY HATE NAGGINGS, and I'm ultra sensitive to people who insist that they are right and they think that they know the best and everything. Unfortunately my brother's kinda like that, and once he becomes like that he phrases everything so offensively I feel like slapping him in the face HAHA. Really, his tone can be really blunt and offensive at times.
I hate people using the 'as-a-matter-of-fact' tone. I would suddenly wish that looks can kill because my face will turn instantly murderous ;D
I hate people contradicting me when I think that I'm not in the wrong right form the start, or if I am really in the wrong (and I know it), please stop nagging and say it only once because I WILL GET IT. Twice and I can get really black-faced.
I'm kinda like a time bomb. When you step on my tail at first, I would try to oontrol my anger and bottle up everything inside me, and retorting whatever's against me whenever necessary. When the argument gets heated up and the inner ball of fire that was right down inside me begin to rise to my diaphragm (or w/e it's spelled), I would suddenly shout at you and all the *#&!)(@&!)@(&)!(@ starts coming out and most probably I would end up so angry my whole face becomes red and it will end up being a shout match. LOL.
Reason why I blog about it? Because I feel like it :D
Oh yeah btw, I'm getting tired of my mum assuming things she thinks happened when IT DOESN'T EVEN HAPPEN. And often it's this case I took so much offense in it that I would immediately shout back. And the rest is history. The new Cold War between her and I had just started -.-
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